Another Opinion by L. Kappel

At times there is a burning desire to put a story on the white space, be that it the screen or paper.

For me the paper  has seemed to work. But I am  now questioning that.

Referring to your point  “ I naively over estimated the intersection of appreciating and creating” sent alarm bells ringing, or for whom the bel tolls!!  Can this be my stumbling block?

The dark clouds of doubt seep in every day, but are these clouds invited? They hinder the development  of my character ? At times I welcome them,  my perfect excuse.

My protagonist no matter how I try has many moving and unmoving parts that mirror me.

Should I just let her be?

Firstly I must recommit to my writing , your point referring to a space and time has been noted a “ first must”, not the last or even does it matter.  If you are not writing you are not a writer what ever that definition is.

Yes,

I am a pants-ers , but I reflect ,  there needs to be some sort of map , no map no direction.

I will now return to jotting down notes on ideas to move my story along.

Instead of my story looking like it had a “Cerebral infarction”  Lack of blood supply results in necrotic tissue , sorry Doctors , this for non medical team members. 

This is what happens frequently to my story lines.

I will join the locking up and throwing away the key to any thought of panting!

It’s fun to think of that’s how its done, but it drains the creative juices,  panting only takes, it does not give.

I am now committing to the key board as well.

I love my ink pens but they only allow me to visualizes my poor hand writing and then I dwell on my imperfections.

The key board will hopefully sever the connection between self doubt and just writing.

The desire to pour my thoughts over the seedling of an idea  allowing it  to be nourished and to grow has always been with me.

It may not be perfect but it will grow and  grow into what it is meant to be.

Thank you my lovely , delightful DeadLies.

L. K.